My life over the past 2 years has been a series of ups and downs. Well I guess it's been that way for longer than 2 years, probably 15 at least. But I suppose most people's lives are that way. We all go through seasons of difficulty and hardship and then come out of it a better person, a stronger person, hopefully a more joyful person. In this season of my life, I went through a time where my dad had an accident and was in the hospital for 3 weeks, I graduated from pharmacy school, moved to Virginia to start a new job (residency), lived on my own for the first time, and dealt with my dad's death a year later.
Now, here I am almost 6 months since he died, and almost 4 months since completing my residency, just unhappy most of the time with my life. I've always had a difficult time being patient and being content with where I'm at RIGHT NOW. Who doesn't look forward to the next stage of life: graduating, getting married, having kids, the next new job, becoming a grandparent, retiring. Why can't we just be content and be happy with the now? Because we always think the next thing will be better than what we're doing right now. Sometimes that's true, often times it's not. Of course I hope to get married and have my own family, and move back to Chicago to live closer to my immediate family, but I just wish I could be more content. I know that's something only God can help me with since I've failed time and again at doing it on my own.
I'm about ready to make a pretty big decision....whether to stay here in Richmond for awhile longer or to move back home to Chicago. I know I'd be able to find a job back there if I wanted to and my family is there and it's home. There's not much keeping me here besides a couple good friends and the great weather (you can't beat a place that only gets 2 inches of snow twice a winter and can stay in the 70s through October and November). =) But being close to family doesn't exactly balance out to the nice weather here. I have til the end of October to make a decision because I have to let them know about whether I'm going to renew my lease or not. Will keep you updated as I figure things out.
Oh and I just have to say that one of the best episodes ever of Friends is on...the one where they play the trivia game and Monica and Rachel lose their apartment to Joey and Chandler. =)